Did you ever feel like nothing you do can make a difference? Like the situation you are in is the only way things can ever be? This, of course, is the kind of thinking that just breeds on itself and keeps you from getting anywhere.
But I've been wondering lately: what if this is as good as it gets? Can I be satistfied with things as they are? Can I be content to live my life as it is?
Trying to make a change is difficult. I know that I should be more social, but when I get home from work and school and finish my assignments and studying, I'm tired! I'm exhausted. I could use a nap. I've been telling people "good night" all day. Is it night? That's a negative. It is definitely day. Still. On and on and on...eyes half closed.
How long can you burn the candle at both ends? How long can a person survive trying to do everything and please everyone? And what happens when you can even do all the things you want to do, let alone the things that people want you to do? You end up just doing the bare minimum, the daily requirements of work and education. I'm exhaused, and I'm spinning my wheels getting no where. If only I had the energy to come up with something fun to do this weekend. But, as always, nothing sounds as fabulous as sleep.
Why is that the highlight of my life?
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